loneliness

righthanded linda aka konda



Im sitting here
Thinking bout
How im gonna do without
You around in my life and how am I
I gon' get by
I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well girl im not alright
Feel out of place and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind

So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that i will never love again


I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life

So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (are you lonely)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time, so lonely)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again

by: babyface


"It is sad not to love, but it is much sadder not to be able to love. " Miguel de Unamuno



Don't want

righthanded linda aka konda

I dont want a PRADA handbag

I just want a sweet vacation



I dont want to see future

I just want to see your smile everyday



I dont want to touch the stars

I just want to hold your hand



I dont want a 1000 GENTLEMAN

what I want is just you..



U dont want to see me sad

But I want you to be happy..

Pathetic

righthanded linda aka konda


Some people says,
sharing is caring

to me,
sharing is pathetic..

some people says,
smoking is harmful

to me,
smoking is release.

some people says,
missing someone is beautiful

to me, it's suck!


some people says,
double is trouble
to me,
single is hard


some people says,
live must goes on

to me, i need to agree with it..


"We need to cut down the grass so that the flower can grow up peacefully
, If we cut the flower off, later,you will never taste the fruit"

When people ask a girl, there are so many route, why you choose the jam one? then the girl reply, because God send me here to go through this jam..maybe He wants me to be tough and patience..then they ask again, "So, when will you arrive then, looks like this jam seems never end" then the Girl reply "I will arrive if this jam let me pass through it.because there's no way out.Maybe it takes quite a loonng time, but I need to wait, even I need to stay here for the 1 whole night..i need to be patience, "How if this jam will never end?", they ask. "Then, send my regards to my Mother".

Roses To Remember Me by Solun Dum Prae Oculis

righthanded linda aka konda


Each year he sent her roses,
and the note would always say,
I love you even more this year,
than last year on this day.
My love for you will always grow,
with every passing year."

She knew this was the last time
that the roses would appear.
She thought, he ordered roses
in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know,
that he would pass away.

He always liked to do things early,
way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy,
everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems and
placed them in a very special vase.
Then, sat the vase beside
the portrait of his smiling face.

She would sit for hours,
In her husband's favorite chair.
While staring at his picture,
and the roses sitting there.

A year went by, and it was
to live without her mate.
With loneliness and solitude,
that had become her fate.

Then, the very hour,
The doorbell rang, and there
were roses sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in,
and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone,
to call the florist shop.

The owner answered, and she asked him,
if he would explain, Why would someone would
do this to her, causing her such pain?

"I know your husband passed away,
more than a year ago,"
The owner said,
"I knew you'd call, and you would want to know.
The flowers you received today,
were paid for in advance.
Your husband always planned ahead,
he left nothing to chance.
There is a standing order,
that I have on file down here,
And he has paid, well in advance,
you'll get them every year.

There also is another thing,
that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago.
Then, should ever I find out that he's no longer here, that's the card that
should be sent to you
the following year."

She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard.
Her fingers shaking,
as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.
Then, as she stared in total silence,
this is what he wrote...

"Hello my love, I know it's been a year
since I've been gone.
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome.
I know it must be lonely,
and the pain is very real.

Or if it was the other way,
I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything
so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words can say,
you were the perfect wife.
You were my friend and lover,
you fulfilled my every need.
I know it's only been a year,
but please try not to grieve.

I want you to be happy,
even when you shed your tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years.
When you get these roses,
think of all the happiness that we had together,
and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and
I know I always will.
But, my love, you must go on,
you have some living still.

Please...try to find happiness,
while living out your days.
I know it is not easy,
but I hope you find some ways.

The roses will come every year,
and they will only stop,
When your door's not answered,
when the florist stops to knock.
He will come five times that day,
in case you have gone out.
But after his last visit,
he will know without a doubt!
To take the roses to the place,
where I've instructed him
and place the roses where we are,
together once again.

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend;
Someone who changes your life
just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe
that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you
that there really is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it.

Tentang Seseorang

righthanded linda aka konda

Ku lari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku
ku lari ke pantai kemudian teriakku
sepi..sepi dan sendiri aku benci
Ingin bingar aku mau di pasar
Bosan aku dengan penat
Enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri

Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
Ada malaikat menyulam jaring labah-labah belang di tembok
kenapa tidak kau goyangkan saja locengnya biar terdera
Atau aku harus lari ke hutan
Belok ke pantai??

Bosan aku dengan penat
Enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri


credit to :Melly Goeslow (Ada Apa Dengan Cinta)

Denting

righthanded linda aka konda

Denting yang berbunyi dari dinding kamarku
sedarkan diriku dari lamunan panjang
Tak terasa malam kini semakin larut
Ku masih terjaga

Sayang kau dimana aku ingin bersama
Aku butuh semua untuk tepiskan rindu
Mungkinkah kau disana merasa yang sama
Seperti dinginku di malam ini


Rintik gerimis mengundang kekasih di malam ini
Kita menari dalam rindu yang indah
Sepi ku rasa hatiku saat ini oh sayangku
Jika kau disini aku tenang

credit to: Melly Goeslow

::kangen sama teman2 sekolahan...:'(

PELANGI

righthanded linda aka konda

meniti pelangi itu indah
cantik bewarna warni..
datangnya memeriah
datangnya bersama cahaya dan air
memberi sinar

cumanya ia
datang di kala siang
kadang kadang
tidak selalu
sebentar cuma

alangkah cantiknya pelangi
Tapi biarla ia tiada
kerna munculnya indah
hilangnya seketika
mendatang rindu
merosak rasa
menjeruk kata

Am I your.......................

righthanded linda aka konda

I am not your Enemy
I am not your brother
I am not your sister
I am not your mother
I am not your father
I am not your student
I am not your kid
I am not your grand child
I am not your staff
I am not your junior
even,
I am not your friend

can you tell me who am I to you?

Wahai Tembok

righthanded linda aka konda

Hati ku ingin
Berjalan seiring
kadang kala sehaluan

tapi mana mungkin
tembok sebesar garuda
setinggi menara
seluas sahara

aku insan kerdil
langsung tiada apa
separuh juga tidak
suku juga tidak
cuma mahu merasa

wahai tembok besar
pernahkah kau merindu
Tidakkah kau faham
aku hanya manusia kerdil
yang tak boleh bolos ke dalam
buka kan satu lubang
sebesar lubang jarum cuma
aku cuma mahu....
Rasa..hembus angin dari dalam..

Hati aku, bukan hati engkau

righthanded linda aka konda

hati aku, hati aku

hati engkau, hati engkau..
sama tidak
serupa tidak

apa terluah
itu hati aku
bukan hati engkau

istigfar lah..
was was itu dari syaitan
ya..aku tahu
syaitan itu aku
aku tak sebaik engkau
tapi hati ini
aku yang punya
bukan siapa-siapa
hati aku, hati aku
ingat tu...


begitu begini

righthanded linda aka konda

BEGITU begini
Di situ Di Sini
Haih!
Bila nak Lalu

bertali tidak
berikat juga tidak


Rasa hati mahu ke mati
rasa mati itu pasti
tapi mati tak mengakhiri

Bukan tak merungkai
bukan tak mengurai
tapi tak upaya

pedih hati mahu mati
pedih lagi nak mengakhiri
lagi pedih bila sendiri

kesana itu berteman..
kesini itu sendirian

kemati jangan diucap berkali
sekali terima padah tak bertepi
beringat selalu afdal diiringi

berharap itu pedih
tiada harap itu kasihan
hilang harap itu longlai
jangan harap itu?

Once

righthanded linda aka konda

Once she leave

She'll never comeback


How I wish~

righthanded linda aka konda

How i wish i can touch the sky
but i can't

How i wish to step on the cloud
but i also cant

How i wish i can follow the sunset
but i still can't

How i wish u can be stronger
but i just can only wish

how i wish i can make a wish
But I will forever can't

''''

i know i'm a very bad person
that why i cant make a wish..
if only i can make it once
i wish i can forgetting u forever....

to you..
I apologize
I know you read my blog
I'm sorry
I know u will never accept my apologize
but still i wanna say sorry hurting you..
and still i put my respect on you no matter how
and the only thing you need to know is,
i cannot even make A wish
How can I move further


'''''''''''''
can i make a wish God?
I wish i'll die tomorrow so everybody will happy..









sis

righthanded linda aka konda

apologize



Go!

righthanded linda aka konda

Take it back..

But remember..

Keep it well..

Very well..

Otherwise I intentionally will steal it from u..

TODAY

righthanded linda aka konda

today...

he's just my brother

if you don't believe it

u can call him..text him..or what not...

I did it..

not because of me

doesn't matter what i'm feeling right now

it's because i love u, my precious friends..my precious family..his precious one..

and because I am still a human

is it enough?

I thought It is good Enough

because I am still a human who has feeling.....

and it's not easy

P/s: I am sorry worrying u guys..:'(

“Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.”

AIR

righthanded linda aka konda




Saya..suka AIR..
But, he loves AIR

Dia.... lemas di AIR
But, I choke in thin AIR

Because,
We are both human
Belongs to The Almighty ALLAH

"A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water, but it can touch the soul as it runs down someone's face.”


“Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.”
































I'LL be

righthanded linda aka konda

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath.
And emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.

[Chorus:]
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed.
You're my survival, you're my living proof.
My love is alive -- not dead.
Tell me that we belong together.
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

[Chorus]

And I've dropped out, I've burned up, I've fought my way back from the dead.
I've tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said

[Chorus:]
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your...
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

The greatest fan of your life.
...greatest fan of your life.

credit to: EDWIN MCCAIN

jangan jatuh

righthanded linda aka konda

"bintang jatuh
perlahanlah..
jangan sampai
kau mencecah
bintang jatuh kisahkanla
ke matanya yang membasah" -fynn jamal, bintang jatuh-

from anon to anon

righthanded linda aka konda

"An Angel after many demons" -anonymous-

selesa

righthanded linda aka konda

Bagini lebih selesa.
Dulu itu seperti neraka
Sungguh pun sekarang tidaklah seperti syurga
Sekurang-kurangnya bikin udara masuk keluar dengan selesa.
Tiada ancaman..tiada sengketa..
Nyaman..

Kemas simpanan dulu
Terkunci
Dan tidak berhasrat untuk buka kembali
Mengingatkan juga tidak berniat..
Cukup lah..

Kemuncup itu sudah tidak dipakaian
Sudah tertanggal
Entah kemana hinggapnya kemudian..
Tidak mahu ambil tahu..
Kebiasaan hidup kemuncup..
Melekat bila kita terlupa
Melekat bila kita tak mahu..

Jalan ini suadah jauh
Berliku-liku
Punya jalan keluarnya?
Ya..masih punya jalan keluar..tapi dimana?
Didepan kamu..Cuma ia tersembunyi..

Aku? Sekarang aku Cuma mahu tersenyum sinis
Kerna itu sememangnya lucu
Bikin kembang tekak
Terasa mahu muntah
Bluuekk~

ignorance

righthanded linda aka konda

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well, I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore

Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well, sentence me to another life

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

We're the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it

The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
'Cause you know we're not the same
No, we're not the same, oh, we're not the same

Yeah, we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend


Well, you treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
Well, I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well, it's nice to meet you, sir
I guess I'll go, I best be on my way out
by :{Paramore}
credit to :Al
"it's better when u r not around"